i'm mentally drained as well as physically drained...

it's been a long time since i rant out my feelings on this blog.

I don't know why, i'd rather express myself through writing rather than verbally sharing it with someone. maybe its just my way of communicating, as i often find it hard to express what i am feeling to others. my mood has been rather moody this whole week, with the stress from the school, and the expectations i have from myself.

I never imagined A levels to be so stressful up to a point of breaking down. Maybe i'm thinking too much, but right after the past 2 compass lessons on University admission, i was obsessed with looking for the course i wanted to take up & got overly worried about not being able to qualify for it. Thinking back, i think i was quite stupid to get so worked up over it up to a point that it was driving me nuts.

I was an emobird yest cos i was really stressed up from the state of realisation that prelims is 21 days away and e guilt from spending my nat day meeting up with friends for a break. I kept bottling up my emotions up to a point that even the slightest thing got me soo agitated that i broke down for a long time yesterday. Over what reasons, up to this point, i really can't find the right answer but i can safely say it was due to over-redundance use of my brain cells over stress and something that i found out about my late grandmother that got me thinking. yea, so i was overly emotional for the whole day,and iwas tired from tearing i slept for 3 hours. When i woke up from my emo state, i decided to get over it and called mar to mug overnight at the airport. thank goodness she was free & was waiting for me to suggest it if not i dont think id be able to survive the whole night in a stable state of mind. yeap,thanks love for the company overnight & going crazy at t3 macs! :)i'm so glad to having caring girlfriends to be there for me all this while :)




thanks jas,mar & bird 3 :)

reminiscing
11:18 PM <3

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