it's 4.28am, n here i am on the internet blogging away.i'm fully awaked now,after a good long sleep from 9pm-3am and a nice,cold shower. Shucks, i think i've been feeling rather down the past few days,it's really tiring and taking up a lot of my energy.

i had an early night cos of the raging headache i had since afternoon, due to the hot sun & also the buckets of tears i shed while breaking down.now to think of it,i can't believe i broke down in sch while talking to fiancee,jas, while we were just talking about our 'girlfriend's issue' when we started moving on to talk abt some things i was upset abt when i reached school late yesterday.

"you are hiding things from me, there's been many things going on,hasn't there?"

at this instant, i just couldn't contain the many problems i was facing, from home,school,relationships, & i broke down on the phone. it was a good relief having someone who finally sensed that i was feeling trapped. finally,someone who cared how i was feeling, instead of always hoping to see the strong,happy-go-lucky girl in school. it was a loong chit chat session of 1 hour that i broke down at the gallery, thank goodness no one passed by,or even any pe teachers, cos if not,surely someone will ask if i'm ok, n i certainly don't need that.



i'd say i'm a very private person, who doesn't like to show the problems she face, especially back at home.maybe that is why i prefer to hide behind a facade, preferably helping others solve their problems rather than my own, cos i don't even know how to solve them. So easy way out, escapade- whole day out,late nights out, mp4 plugged in,go running.

watever,talking about this makes me depressed in the morning, gotta start on my math tutorial & head down to school for house meeting @ 7.30am, if there's time, i think i'll go running 1st:D

reminiscing
7:26 PM <3

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