i'm soo pissed now... this is another of those emotional breakdowns that i'm having this holiday. i realise i lead a rather complicated life. well, most normal children will have 1 mother but for me, amazingly i have 4 mums who look after me. haha, before anyone says "LUCKY YOU!" hold your horses (rather your comments,people)

i have my real mother whom i called ibu, eldest aunt called mummy,3rd eldest aunt called mak & youngest aunt called cik. so yea,the idea of having so many 'mums' is cool cos whenever you're pissed at one, you can go to the other to complain.(HOHO, sounds like a spare tyre kinda thing aint it?) but anyway, to be frank, i think i'm closest to my aunts rather than my own mum cos i'm living with them and seeing them more often than im seeing her.and this leads to rather sticky situations where some parties will question who loves me the most and all. (i mean i can't help it i'm so loved but yea, it totally sucks ) and there can be quarrels over the most trivial matters like todae, "who's buying the birthday cake for malina"

Seriously,it doesn't really matter if i celebrate my birthday or not cos i'm used to not even celebrating it at all. I mean my friends remember it & celebrate my birthday more than my family does. but, watever, bottom line is that i got into a stupid quarrel with my mum over a stupid cake cos my aunt insisted on my mum buying the damn cake -_-"

i think i have a very queer family who doesnt really care whether im living or dead. haha, i mean it's good that they "entrust" me the amount of freedom (if you see it that way) but guess wat, sometimes you just feel neglected and like a lost child. Imagine this scenario..

9pm,out with friends.

Handsphones start beeping / ringing. my friends take turns to answer calls by their parents asking for their whereabouts n all.stares at malina's fone *SILENCE*

my parents don't start calling ( wait, SMS i mean ) until it's 11.30pm? hohoh.. means i can enjoy the time in the world going home till late.if im a rebellious no-brain bitch. i'll most probably go loose clubbing & drinking at night or sth. Thank goodness i've been brought up the right way (thanks to my uncle & aunts)

sometimes, i'm green over the concern my mum gives to my bro, (nvm it's annoying she starts calling when its only 9pm) but it goes to show she cares abt him and that she remembers she has a son. sometimes, when im home early ard 9pm & she starts fussing over my bro not being home at 9pm, i'll suddenly ask " why are you so concerned? he's 14 already rite? i dont remember you even enquiring about me now, wait, not even last time" sorry call me insolent child or queen bitch but it irks me why i'm not given the same amount of attention.

it sucks being the middle child at times, you're neither here nor there. but then again, it aids you in your personal growth cos you learn to be independent and not turn out to be a spoilt brat.. like my rude insolent brother, and the many children nowadays.

reminiscing
1:34 PM <3

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