im in one of the lowest point in my life rite now, don't know why. tapestry '07 just ended & i'm already missing the whole committee & even the performers & volunteers. Two days of blast & fun & sweat.. missing them all, it's like having that purpose in life. didn't go to school todae, a little sick & have no voice from being a passive smoker & having to scream to talk to ppl over the loud music. i'm really thankful for being given the chance to organise such a huge event , though only orchard area, it's a real eye opener to a 17year old like me. but all this joy of organising has left me thinking abt life, school & the purpose of it.

I'm too tied down to many commitments, sch, track, council, h5, exco. i'm drained out. give me time out ,please. i'm just so afraid rite now, i feel like curling up at one corner & shut myself away from all these responsiblities. Im afraid i'll retain. fark, that'll be the worse nightmare. im loathing school just thinking abt it. seeing all the bands play their instruments & seeing the joy in their faces makes me think about how the simple things in life can make you happy. the chase for higher positions & more salary is killing many ppl, bit by bit. Pursuing As in school is doing just that to many of us, the expectations i have of myself is stressing me out. how ironic. anyway, i've been listening to red jumpsuit apparatus -your guardian angel repeatedly. that song was the last few songs played by delirious static, before tapestry ended. one of my favourite songs ..& it's making me emo.

i need my knight in shining armour..where art thou?

Artist: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Album: Don't You Fake It
Year: 2006Title: Your Guardian Angel


When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong
I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you
I'll be the one


I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away[Your Guardian Angel Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com]
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven[to fade]

reminiscing
8:38 PM <3

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