sometimes i just wonder, why do they call it sweet 17? hrmph.i can't agree much to that for now. Geez, just hours ago, i was happy & hyped up for my birthday. But ever since i woke up at 10 plus , i started to get a bit emo. & have moodswings. maybe it's due to the sms i received from my dad. *sigh*
Today's a really lousy day for me, i don't know why i'm having moodswings. PMS? Nahh.. just emotional today i guess. I didn't even celebrate my birthday :( I just went out to meet jac for awhile, met up with marr to have lunch @ breeks & emo-ed at esplanade for 20min & went hm to an empty hse. how awful a birthday, most of my close freinds had things on & couldn't be with me. :( i didn't even have a birthday cake to cut,i was looking forward to eating my double fudge chocolate cake :'( I went window shopping by myself,looking at things i just can't afford to buy & wished was mine. i want to have retail theraphy sometime:)
wtf,it's a depressing day. thinking about almost everything under the sun, my family,friends,school & my life.Don't ask me why, but i've never felt so lonely in my life ,spending my bdae emo-ing at home. sheesh, i should really get a grip of myself. maybe there's just too many problems going on that i just can't keep up with it. urgh, im just feeling pissed off now, pissed off at myself for procrastinating my hw, pissed at the tv & match cos though s'pore won, they didn't play well @ all & the defense was atrocious,pissed @ myself again for not enjoying myself on my birthday, & just pissed at the whole world.
I wantS...
I want that chocolate fudge cake,with melted chocolate coating ,& sugar coatings on it, I want a nice new wallet from wallet shop I want to buy that 2 green tops & gold & brown stripe dress from Zara, I want an iPod for myself to replace my spoilt mp3 I want unlimited free smses from singtel so that my phone bill won't burst I want to have a best friend that i can share everything with ( though i dont believe in ranking friends) I want to have a closet full of of new clothes filled with nice skirts,dresses, & tops I want to have a rack full of pumps,shoes, & slippers I want to spend my birthday with some1 special I want to have a life like a tai tai who worries abt nothing except for her appointments I want to spend more time with my family I want to spend more time to catch up with cedar friends I want a201 to remain together & go thru hell & happiness in mj together I want people to remember me as a friend who's always there for them I want a holiday to Australia or Maldives & hopefully meet cute,hot guys there I want a single digit for my O levels I want to sleep right now but my mind is just full of things I want to go for lessons by O School for hip hop & street jazz I want to have a date for V day I want to have soo much money that i can spend it & not worry abt it being finished I want the world to be a quiet place that has no war going on I want to be myself & not worry abt what others think of me.
So much for what I want. -Reality check-
there's school tmr,wtf.
& thank you to those who bothered to sms,call,msg me a "happy birthday" :) if not for u, it'd have been more depressing.:)
