damn, the wet weather's getting to me.. i'm feeling so gloomy n sad for no apparent reason.. pms maybe? haiz.. i just feel like crap, can't believe that a new year's coming , yet i havent done much this year..
the world's a stage and the people are the actors & actresses. wonder how true that is. sometimes i wonder, are the people whom we think we know being their true selves? or are they just another cast of a drama sequel? seriously, i don't know. Wondering abt it, makes me question myself if i'm one of the cast or being a part of the audience? thinking back, i realise that i'm always putting up a front ,hiding behind facade, trying to cover my emotions as much as possible. dont ask me why,its a bad habit of mine.
i look into a mirror & sees a girl,confused,shattered & helpless.. is she the person whom i think she really is?
you, why are u always pretending everything's alrite, that the world's a perfect place,n everythg's under control. why must u always hide your feelings, your emotions just to spare a thought for others & their feelings, neglecting your very own.
Now look at yourself, who's laughing now,enjoying life as it is, getting all the things they've ever wanted, achieving their aims & goals, while you cry away at your corner silently?
Who wld rmb your thoughfulness in sheltering others, the emotions that you kept hidden, the pain that you went through & the sacrifices you had to do?
Grow up, be strong is what you tell yourself, you shut urself away from the world, thinking that the world's cruel.
Run away- that's what you always do, thinking that it will solve everythg. Sad, you dont even have a clue. you're destroying yourself bit by bit, tearing yourself apart slowly.
Yet again,you repeat the mistake, who can u blame other that your sheer stupidity.
