I really do not know if it's me or is the time really going too fast? Soon , CNY is coming & i really can't wait to get a BREAK from all this hectic & crazy schedule, of which most of the teenagers would call SCHOOL!
Break is what I need & time is what I lack. hAH. How Ironic. Anyway, the hectic schedule that i am trying to working out isn't going too well. Goodness, I am soo sick of being torn apart between 2-3 commitments. What's worse is if I do not go for one thing, one party will be unhappy & there goes the procedure & favourite past time of gossiping & talking behind my back. & if i leave halfway from one place to another, i'll most probably miss out a lot. well..i'm trying to get "the best of both worlds". Do not ask me what worlds i am talking about when there's only one Earth -_-".
But I just figured, that sometimes, you just can't get what you want & things won't go your way. In fact, it happens everytime. I do not know why i am here blogging instead of doing A Math . I guess i just need to pen my thoughts down since i rarely tell my emotions to others. I do not see the point in doin so, I just don't.
Had a really bad day today. Was superly pissed off at myself into getting in such shitty situations. Seriously, sometimes, people just don't understand, no matter how important something is to you. Or maybe they choose not to understand, as it's the easier way out & getting their way. Well.. I have to say, at least they know what they want instead of like me, torn between many things. :(I'm really tired of hiding behind a facade,always there & assuring that everything's alright,but in actual fact i'll be upset & unhappy just to make others around me happy. Well, i guess 1 person being unhapy is better that a group of people being unhappy. I really do not know why I just couldn't leave, maybe because i have a really strong conscience. Ya, and i suffered badly too after staying cos i wanted to go badly for the other thing. argh..wtf... i just could not make up my mind.
I'm really sick & tired of all these nonsensical shitty situations. I am really exhausted & wish I lead a life where i do not have much commitments nor involved in soo many acts.Just imagine , me going home straight after school ,& me joining a slack CCA. JUST IMAGINE. Imagining is good but it actually happening is anoher thing.
Chances & Choices come & go at every point in our lives. I had a Choice, and I chose to live by a hectic schedule, I suffer the consequences. I just have to face it with a brave front. Face it as a challenge no matter how tired I am of it.
-I have not failed. I have just found 10 00 ways to do it- I hope that's true...
