Finally got to update my blog.. been bz & also e stupid com always got moodswing when i want to use it. anyway, has been a lil depressed & disappointed lately. finally got e progress report. expected it to be disgusting. i was damn rite. then stupidly had to collect it in front of whole class during reading period. tried controlling myself while waiting for my name to be called. but dunno wat e hell was wrong with me n i cried in front of e whole class.. argH!!! so embarassing~ 2nd time i cried in e class's presence. wtf. well done malina.im so pissed with myself.couldnt see y i've been failing. it's so frustrating. not tt i nvr study for e tests or sth. i dunno y e hell i must get mental block whenever i have tests. mayb it's juz me. maybb cos i'm lyk so stupid. oh goodness...now i noe e feeling of stressed out. i've nvr failed soooo many tests e history of my life.mann.. cant stand it. cant stand tt i'm doin badly.it's really depressing to see e class doin so well & ur one of e few pathetic ones who did badly.wtf. arghhhhh...i dunno y e hell i must be careless in maths test everytime. so careless tt i flunk e whole paper. so stupified. n everyone has been telling me it's ok to fail @ e start of sec3 life. lyk of course it's ok for u!it's either no. 1: u've nvr failed b4 so u dunno e feeling or 2: u juz cant be bothered & very bo chap. well..i juz assume its no.1.was damn scared to show parents my prog. report cos it's e 1st time iwas showing some horrible & shittified results. reached home & juz told my parents i've got my results & my results was atrocious. they took it more calmly than i imagined. ahha..mayb cos they're received worse or equal results frm my sis b4. then mum was a lil weird. trying to act like counsellor.lol. asked e whole fam to sit down & talk. like wat prob we have in sch.blablabla.. lyk i dun have a prob other than my brain??!!! dUH~~ ahha..me & my sis were lyk diao~wassup with my mum?hehe..i was thinking menopause la.but she's not tt old le?.hehe. then she talked bout me 1st how to improve my results. blablabla. only for a moment.then quickly talk bout my bro.obviously she's more concerned for her darling son. cant be bothered la. i'll juz be independent & overcome my own problems.then e funniest part is, we went out for dinner as a whole fam!muahahaha..lyk no occasion or anything go out to eat. so weird. lyk as though celebrating my lousy results.ahha..okok...i shall juz appreciate my mum's effort to enhance & instill e spirit of togetherness in my fam =P