Fell in love with this song when i heard it on radio :)

and no, it's to no one in particular >_<

Love story- Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a life story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town,

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

reminiscing
12:24 AM <3

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I Believe



I believe-
That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe-
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and, you must forgive them for that.



I believe-
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe-
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.



I believe-
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them

I believe-
That you can keep going long after you can't.

I believe-
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.



I believe-
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe-
That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there
had better be something else to take its place.

I believe-
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.



I believe-
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time!

I believe-
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.



I believe-
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe-
That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've
learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.



I believe-
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe-
That our background and circumstances may have influenced
who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.



I believe-
That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other, And just
because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe-
That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.



I believe-
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe-
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a
friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I believe-
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.



I believe-
That the people you care about most in life are the essence of life.
Tell them today how much you love them and what they mean to you.

reminiscing
10:41 PM <3

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Ever felt lonely and feel that you dont belong at times?

well, i did. i mean do.

having lived in 2-3 houses and hopping between houses, i guess i just can't help but feel a bit strange each time i come back home after soo long of living at another.i guess it's quite a normal reaction,but not when you dont feel welcomed at all, and worse even having heard and to tolerate such hurtful comments like " go back to where you belong" whenever a quarrel ensues. dude, this is where i belong. but sometimes i really question myself, where do i really belong?is there even a place i can call home?(gee, sounds so national day-ish)

but really, sometimes i feel that my existence is not important and to the extent i feel insignificant. I just discovered recently that should i ever go missing, no one @ home (whichever house itll be)will notice until a few days after that cos everyone will think im at each others house. wow...i should just really conduct an experiment to prove my thesis.

but yea, it's quite tiring pretending to be strong and happy when all these emotional things get to you. its even worse when friends come to you to tell their worries, i mean, i really dont mind being a listening ear, but when is it my turn to be the speaker? yes, i have to say its my fault for cooping everything up and not sharing things with friends, but it's just hard for me to do it. not unless i put my full trust in someone, of which i can think of one or two. but i just dont want to be a nuisance or a burden to anyone in doing so. gosh..im in such a disoriented state now.

and fark, i'm getting damn farked up and stressed over As, i dont feel a tinge of preparedness at all nor confidence. i'm just so afraid to disappoint my aunts, teachers and friends. but most importantly,im afraid of disappointing myself, the taste of failure yet again,having the feeling of shittiness and regrets with questions "where did i go wrong?"


fark. i hate this feeling.

reminiscing
1:26 AM <3

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each time i feel like ranting off on my blog, i hesitated, reconsidered and then proscrastinated.

tonight i will just do it, no more putting it off. not that it holds top priority, but that i just need to let it all go.

2 days of jogging didn't really help relieve stress, probably because i was struggling half the time with a flu & on the brink of suffocation. hoho, smart move malina, wait till road race incident happens again. *shudders*

the last time that happened, i felt soo scared,the only thought that came through my head was "damn, i dont wanna be one of those runners who died while running." i kinda regretted running for road race,hoping to get a personal best, only attaining a personal experience. lol,after the classic case of being sent to the hosp for hyperventilation, i told myself never to be a dumbass to risk my health ever again. oh boy,the promise was sort of short-lived, cos i still continued to run even on days when im having a bad flu & end up gasping for breath, thinking that i can let it all out & vent it while running. haha, just to sidetrack, nada created drama & ambulance dashed through the courtyard,ok, not considering the situation,when i first saw the ambulance, i felt that we were all a part of a movie, and it was all part of a film.-_-" me & my weird thinking. anyway moral of the story: don't run when you're having flu + don't gulp gallons of redbull. (i swear the effect of it lives up to the tag line, you'll feel like flying) last time i did that, it was block test,my muscles were twitching like it was all ready to sprint 4 rounds around the hall,or felt like the gears of a car. so yea, dont be a dumbass like me and do it.

anyway, all the silly things aside, i realised i've been rather cranky of late. I get agitated so easily , my tolerance level for people is slowly diminishing,it's scary cos i see myself turning into a monster,a bitchy cranky one,for that matter. freaky shit, i guess many of those taking As or under a lot of stress must have felt like this one time or another. i'm really sorry friends, if i appeared cold or snappy without any reason, really, blame it on As, it's the stress baby!

Many many things happen the past month & has been bugging me but i dont know where to start. allright, start with the part of myhp line being cut,cos my bills were overdued, and guess wat, i found out my lil brat of a cousin used my hp to dl some retarded games & also the internet. "ohhh..that explains the high bill." -_-" i swear i could kill her at the point in time. but well, i just got to give an earful of naggings to my cousin & thats it. What form of justice is that? I had to pay for her bill, cos i was nice enough not to tell my aunt about it. haha, now i have to start digging every shilling out of my piggy bank and scrouch every corner of the house to get money.lol, all right not that bad, but still, i gotta settle it damn soon.

that aside,i was just thinking about my life & all and reflecting how effed up it can get at times. life's been trying and i'm sure a vast majority of kids nowadays havent experienced life like how my family had. ohh well, life's like that some might say, but hey, that's not the effing point,easy for you to say,wait till you experience hardship. but in a positive light, let's just say im thankful for what happened cos i learnt to grow from it & build up my character.there's more things that i'd like to rant but i just cant bring myself to mention it all here.

next issue. talk about gratitude. sometimes i wonder why some ppl have lack of it, or rather none at all. i mean, at some point in your life, you will reach a point of realisation where you feel that you owe your life to someone, in one way or another, cos they were there for you or contribute to your lifestory at one stage or other. so it puzzles me how some people just dont show or express their gratitude. a mere simple "thanks" is sufficient. Just one word that can mean a lot. but well, i guess, some people arent sensitive to such stuff or maybe they forgot. a very weak excuse, but still, an excuse,as some may say.

reminiscing
12:48 AM <3

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