Learnt this new word after reading The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho. Such a simple word, yet it holds such a strong meaning to me. I'm quite glad to have read the book, and it finally showed to me a different perspective to the issue that i've been thinking about lately.
i guess, sometimes, i should leave it all to fate, as i'm just so tired of how things are, and how my efforts are not reciprocated. i guess if it's meant to be, then the time will come. as for now, i'm glad to have you as a close friend, and i hope the friendship remains as that.
anyway, new favourite song.
Tonight-FM Static
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up and know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
reminiscing 12:46 PM <3
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
the runaway
Plug in the mp4 to the playlist "Emo songs" Sinks into the realm of darkness, feelings of emptiness engulfing her thoughts keep running through her head she is lost,confused,overwhelmed with the sudden gush of emotions blinks back tears,sees the world again behind a facade finds her form of escapism and turns on the blasting music and drowns in the slow,sad music.
randomness-
and i have a bunch of emo birds as friends
reminiscing 12:42 AM <3
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
im still awake at the wee hours of the morning, guess what.. i wasted my 3 weekends away doing nothing. saturday was spent wasting time at ntu, thanks to the brilliant planning n overestimation of time by the higher authorities.luckily i didn't ggxx throughout the whole of the rehearsal, only during lunch!:D ok , thonning the night wasnt that a bad idea, haha cos i finally get to watch ironman! along with brian, christina n kevan:) after the movies, poor brian went home n christina, bird n i went to eat supper before going over her hse to thon! haha soo much for not sleeping cos the 1st to knock out was as usual the retarded dodobird, followed by me n christina. woke up 2hrs later to get ready to reach sch by 5.45am, n lois's dad sent us to sch! her dad's cool! he drives like tokyo drift! drift drift drift drift drift!
ok, i wasted my saturday night to meet my bffae,jasmine n brian(atlas) chill with them for a while n went home earlier cos i was quite stoned n emo at the same time.
Sunday wasn't soo bad.. i woke up 12 hrs later to chill at home n then prepare for my sis surprise bdae party. Gosh, i swear i can nearly strangle her bf for the ulu and distant location of the bbq pit! haha, imagine, carrying 2 packs of ice(5kg) plus 2 cordial syrups from white sands all the way to pasir park! & i walked there cos there wasnt any bus to the place(its near the road race area) i was tired n pissed (cos everyone kept calling for directions & my relatives were stranded at caprak E while i was at carpark C n expected me to fetch them) i nearly teared out of frustration. Luckily, my good sense of directions finally got me to the bbq pit n i put the barang barang( i think i developed muscles from carrying those) n went in the search of my relatives! haha.unfortunately, while i was looking for my cousin & his gf, my sis n her bf walked on the same path! there goes the surprise though we tried to cover it up! haha if not for my cousin & gf being thre, i think my sis wld have believed my white lie of looking for jasmine (haha cept that she was still home)
yeap, so in the end everyone found the bbq pit (though it caused me to walk to and fro many many times )n i got to eat mice bbq food thanks to my dearest cousin n dad! my galfriends(jasmine & mariam)pang seh me in the end,n i was sooo bored n out of place i called on bird(kevan) & blackcurrant(fazall) to join me cos they stayed around the area!haha pantat couldnt come down cos his dad was home so yea, he turned down my offer to get free food!:D chilled with the two jokers, fed them with food & after a while i parted with my family to go home with them, only to find that i missed the last bus!=_=" lucky my dad called n i had to walk back to pasir ris park to cab home with my family. so yea, it was a day of endless walking.
today was spent lazying around at home,as i thought i wouldnt have anything to do (i forgot the part that i have short term memory) i remembered at 7pm that i'm having a chem test on thermochem n studied from 8-10plus. then, i remembered that i had to send to myself the 2 essays i chiong on thurs (tempest & gp) only to remember that my com died on my & was sent for repair...so yea POOF! my efforts are now gone!:'( i'm supposed to chiong it now..but the thought of having to redo everything is sickening. but yea..i'll prioritise GP 1st :X
anyway, i should be staarting my essay now.. GGXX tomorrow. :S but yes, i'll go to school no matter wat!:D mark my words. (ok, if i dont oversleep)
reminiscing 1:42 AM <3
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in love with this song currently. don't ask me why i'm in love with love songs.:)
i'm hoping that you'll one day fall for me
reminiscing 1:39 AM <3
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
He's so sexy!i'm in love with this song, haha, if there's any guy would sing to me this song, i'll melt! haha, anyone who has this song on mp3, send me pleasE:D
David Cook performing his arrangement of Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby."
We were as one For a moment in time And it seemed everlasting That you would always be mine Now you want to be free So I'll let you fly 'Cause I know in my heart Our love will never die
(Chorus) You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinately Boy don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're ever gonna shake me Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry And I won't beg you to stay If you're determined to leave boy I will not stand in your way But inevitably, you'll be back again 'Cause you know in your heart babe Our love will never end
(Chorus)
I know that you'll be back boy When your days and your nights get a little bit colder I know that you'll be right back baby Oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time
reminiscing 2:42 PM <3
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Ever been in a situation where you're stuck in a bitch fight on the net? HAHA, the last time that occurred to me was in sec 1-2, just over trivial matters over track & girls' school rivalry nonsense.
I'm currently stuck in one now, just to help defend my best friend, who apparently got shot at cos some people think that she stole some girl's boyfriend, when in actual fact, the relationship was a goner to start with. but well, this endless banter is quite fun & amusing, cos the people who wrote nasty comments on my friend's blog lack in wit, and the comments they make are quite no link & amusing. HAHA, this is for entertainments' sake on my part. but, yes i do get f*cking pissed when slapped with the label whore for no apparent reason. haha, they want bitchy? they got it:D
Episode 1:The start of Bitch fight
XiuHui & Alicia are the friends of the girl who thought she was cheated. haha, i mean how moralistic can they get? But apparently, they don't realise the thing that they think are doing 'correctly' is just so ironic, cos they are helping their friend at the expense of hurting my friend and hurling abusive language at her. (not saying what i'm doing is right either ,but hey, at least i'm honest;) )
Episode 2
I intervened with this ,cos my friend was complaining to me about it. HAHA, it was quite fun to practise my sarcasm on these people. they're quite NOOB. and this girl whom i've been in a bitch fight with is soo poor in comprehending things. haha, i mean, c'mon!, you can insult better than that! & she has no idea wtf she's doing to herself, with the comments she makes. I like this classic line "at least my cock has fans and makes more sense"<-- someone just shoot me! I nearly died of laughter reading this! I mean ,HELLO, NO LINK?! and hey if anyone reading this understands what she was trying to say, please enlighten me :D maybe i'm not witty enough to comprehend this.:P
Episode 3 Alicia's poor rebuttal & defense. I wouldn't recommend her to be a lawyer, cos her client will lose hands down and waste their money on her.hehe, no offense girl, you're not fully utilizing your brain, it's such a waste of natural resources.
Episode 4 My bitchy reply to Alicia. I mean, i'm sorry, but one thing that irks me the most is when people call me 'maid', 'whore' or 'slut.' I mean, WTF? It's not that i sleep around or somethingg. It's getting personal man, i swear if i ever get to meet her, i'd punch her teeth out or something. HOHO. (Ok, that sounds violent but i hate claims that are not substantiated and empty)
This is my final counter-attack to alicia! haha, i kinda pity her, cos she's raally bad at comprehending whatever insults that were shot at her. haha so they say, ignorance is bliss!:P
reminiscing 1:09 PM <3
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
Whee.. had pre-u seminar stuff today, not exactly a worth of my time, neither was it fully a waste of time. Unfortunately, I had to endure Modulus's talking & voice nearly throughout the whole recce time there, yak yak yak away...
Unnecessary comments were certainly not invited, especially when it's all common sense. We wasted time, taking our own sweet time walking & listening to overemphasized points :D (if you know what i mean)
The highlight was LUNCH! where i got to eat my SUBWAY COOKIE!
But cookie monster kept staring at me cos i didn't give it some cookies :X
"Where's my cookie????"
Random Camwhoring...
Mas & I glad to be on the way back to school
While waiting for Shu Hui & Mas to shop for Mothers' Day gift, I made a new friend.
Anyway, blue birds had an outing yesterday consisting of : Bird 1(Kevan) Bird 2(Hector) Bird 3(Hui Ming) Bird Liaison (me!) & migratory bird that joined us (Brian) :D
Didn't watch movie in the end :'( cos it was fully booked *boohoo* but we ended up camwhoring & chilling at Esplanade.
At esplanade! Brian's heart was flying around..
His paper heart was stolen by Hui Ming & I!:D
More Camwhoring...
Again...
After Esplanade, we decided to go shopping..
Only to have Brian for Sale: On Display
Please handle him with care :)
Final photo before going home...
Camwhorers: Kevan,me,Brian,Hector
reminiscing 11:59 PM <3
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Here are photos from
This is for my 5th SC:) Missing all 32 of you & your cute antics!
COLOSSEUM!
reminiscing 11:14 PM <3
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
Obsession lyrics
Artist - Frankie J Heard this song on the radio, and fell in love with it instantly.
Album - Frankie J
Lyrics - Obsession
Its early in the morning And my heart is really lonely Just thinkin 'bout you baby Gots me twisted in the head And I dont know how to take it But its driving me so crazy I dont know if its right Im tossin turning in my bed Its 5 oclock in the morning And I still cant sleep Thinkin 'bout your beauty it makes me weep i'm feeling hopeless at home I dont know what to do i think i'm in love Baby...........
[Chorus] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love) than what am i feeling what am i doing wrong Amor, no es amor (if this aint love) Its just an illusion that I have in my heart
Now I know you're not my lady but i'm tryin to make this right I dont know what to do Im going out of my mind So baby if u let me kick it witchu then well maybe we could ride together We could do this all nite now I dont care if you got a man Baby I wish you'd understand Cuz I know he cant love u right, quite like I can Its 5 oclock in the morning And i still cant sleep Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weep i'm feeling hopeless at home I dont know what to do i think i'm in love
[Chorus] Amor no es amor (if this aint love) then what am i feeling what am i doing wrong Amor, no es amor (if this aint love) Is this an illusion that I have in my heart
I love the way you freak it like that I love the way you freak it like that I love the way you freak it like that Its an obsession
[Baby Bash] Hold up let me dream Shorty got me feelin serene Where my candy, where my cream Got your boy feel less supreme Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent Loving everything your representing Got alot of money, I love to spend it And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream No im blessin when im stressin My superfly beauty queen Im gonna keep it saucy Cuz my ma know how I do, we go rendevous, MI CORAZON BELONGS TO YOU
[Chorus] Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love) then what am i feeling (what am i doing wrong) what am I doing so wrong [echo] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love) Is this an illusion that I have in my heart Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love) then what am i feeling (what am i doing wrong) what am I doing so wrong [echo] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love) Is this an illusion that I have in my heart
Amor
reminiscing 10:39 PM <3
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Anyway, here's the dance that we presented during our final student's investiture. Credits to dance comm. :)) for choreography & the rest of 5th SC for being "professional dancers" as quoted by some visitors ;)
Disclaimer: I apologize to whichever party that found some parts of the dance choreography offensive. In the script, i did not mean any personal attacks, but merely to express how we felt during our line in duty as councillors, and it was an expression in general. If there was any blaming-game of the people behind the whole 'expressionism' act, please do not pin-point my 5th SC as the script-writer was me.
The cool video that brought back many fond memories. (i nearly cried watching the video at home, knowing the fact that i wont be able to go crazy with this 32 people or do 'saikang' with them no more.)
reminiscing 10:15 PM <3
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Friday, May 02, 2008
it's 12.32am in the morning and i can't sleep. this feeling of emptiness & confusion is just so frustrating its a big distraction in my head now. I can't seem to get myself to budge & continue with the pile of work i have left; though i know the repercussions are great & would even lead to me being chased out of class, but hell, i can't even think straight right now.
i'm emo-ing for no real reasons, and again the song "your guardian angel" had me changed into emo mode & i cant do work now. shucks,there's an overflowing rush of emotions that i'm feeling right now, i don't know how to put it in words.
"im going crazy thinking about you lately" -KC & JoJo ,Crazy
that's what i'm feeling right now i guess. you're such a big distraction on my mind, i don't know if that's a good or bad thing.i'm in a state of confusion right now, i don't even know what im rambling about.this post is really gonna sound mushy or whatever you might call it,but i guess i feeling all emo cos i miss you n your presence. n yea, i'm unsure of what i feel for you now, so that what makes it worse. it doesn't quite make sense to anyone, but that's the whole idea, that love is complicated. but yea, i guess there's no point in thinking about it all the time when it'll do no good to my life now. i might as well go with the flow and leave it to fate.
anyway,i think i should be sleeping now cos my back is hurting again from carrying stacks of chairs yesterday after investiture.. i think i'm getting really old with the strained back bothering me. :(
