i just attended a funeral this week. My closest neighbour a.k.a my mum's best friend, just passed away from a sudden heart attack. :( this came as shocking news as she didn't even have heart problems before this. :( this just goes to show how unpredictable life can be. when it's time for us to go, there's no warning for it. neither is there chance to say goodbye to even loved ones.
Ronin One More Moment Lyrics Don't take too long to say "I love you" to the ones you love, cause time has a habit of slipping away.
Cherish your loved ones. Appreciate them, shower them with love.
-In loving memory of Aunty Doris-
reminiscing 12:37 AM <3
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Monday, March 24, 2008
it's 4.28am, n here i am on the internet blogging away.i'm fully awaked now,after a good long sleep from 9pm-3am and a nice,cold shower. Shucks, i think i've been feeling rather down the past few days,it's really tiring and taking up a lot of my energy.
i had an early night cos of the raging headache i had since afternoon, due to the hot sun & also the buckets of tears i shed while breaking down.now to think of it,i can't believe i broke down in sch while talking to fiancee,jas, while we were just talking about our 'girlfriend's issue' when we started moving on to talk abt some things i was upset abt when i reached school late yesterday.
"you are hiding things from me, there's been many things going on,hasn't there?"
at this instant, i just couldn't contain the many problems i was facing, from home,school,relationships, & i broke down on the phone. it was a good relief having someone who finally sensed that i was feeling trapped. finally,someone who cared how i was feeling, instead of always hoping to see the strong,happy-go-lucky girl in school. it was a loong chit chat session of 1 hour that i broke down at the gallery, thank goodness no one passed by,or even any pe teachers, cos if not,surely someone will ask if i'm ok, n i certainly don't need that.
i'd say i'm a very private person, who doesn't like to show the problems she face, especially back at home.maybe that is why i prefer to hide behind a facade, preferably helping others solve their problems rather than my own, cos i don't even know how to solve them. So easy way out, escapade- whole day out,late nights out, mp4 plugged in,go running.
watever,talking about this makes me depressed in the morning, gotta start on my math tutorial & head down to school for house meeting @ 7.30am, if there's time, i think i'll go running 1st:D
reminiscing 7:26 PM <3
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ahhh..i think i am going nuts.
i'm feeling super suffocated now, gosh i don't know why.todae was a good day turned bad. ok, i overslept and woke up at 6.30am, when i was supposed to be running at that time!shucks,the nocturnal habit has its disadvantages i guess, like duh, i slept at 3am. hoho.
anyway, i reached school in time for 7.15am :D haha, n i was rushing into the GO cos i thought we could put our bags there, n stupid idiot,taikeeboon, never even stopped me! haha, embarrassing!but yea, after that, we met up as a SC to do Invest. :) whee! our brilliant idea!hehe
i had fun with my class at my class picnic turned lunch.from botanics garden->padang->marine parade->east coast-> Terminal 3! LOL, how cute can they get? haha of course, e final decision was made by me:)) cos we were on 53, n i was telling them how i got to know we could enter the fountain area! so we decided to be caged monkeys & eat there.
reminiscing 7:17 PM <3
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omg,it's 1.52am now, n i'm still wide awake. the nocturnal routine is really getting to me. urghh..haha it doesn't help that i am watching crazy alvin n the chipmunks videos on youtube. LOL,i've been an irritant e past hour to ppl online, kept distracting kevan from his mahjong game so that he'll lose the game, n talking nonsense to jun kai online :D haha, alvin n chipmunks sure doesnt want me to sleep!
i love this video best! the first one i chance upon!
my favourite getting crazy song!:) YOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
n yes, ARE YOU READY TO STEP UP! to this version of low :D
k i'm going nuts here. i shd settle down to sleep soon. im going running at 6.30am in sch :D wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ok, but deep down i can't lie to myself. i'm worried abt tmr. as much as you assure me it'll be fine, i know you're hiding behind a facade. take care,have faith :)i pray hard you'll be in good hands
reminiscing 1:52 AM <3
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
ok, so the ordeal i had to face has already past..MARCH BLOCK TEST '08 has just been over a few days ago. I realise many many things has been happening to me the past few weeks.HOHO
my darling,mp4 :) guess wat! i forgot to mention that i got a mp-4,Samsung T-10! I'm in love with it! It's got a nice classy look that makes its so unique:D lol, i got to buy it at the IT Fair ,together with th other two doinks, brian & kevan.:D but well, it was a good deal done mann! i can use my mp4 to call ppl! woohoo:D cool shiet.
Mac's my best friend
yes, i've been overnighting at macs with my nocturnal muggers;kevan,brian,hector,jas + sometimes christina on alternate days. I can totally call t3 macs my 2nd home, n i think e staff are sick of seeing us there all the time.hehe, but well, i have admit i studied a lot this time compared to my previous exams.the mugger spirit is coming to me already.HOORAY! true blue meridian mugger by the end of june:D
girlfriends
ive been meeting up with my darlings,jas & mar nearly everyday, cos of some issues. but yea, i'm sorry that i've been busy last time,n wasn't there for you two in times of need. hope i can make it up to u right now alright,love you babeh!
reminiscing 1:07 AM <3
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
whoa, time realy flies and the last blog entry that i wrote in was last month.it's march now and block test is just 2 days away.. stress is really getting to me, having only one week to catch up with all the work i've missed from sickleave & orientation II. Urgh..24hrs is surely not sufficient for my revision for all my subjects.. n i did the craziest thing a mugger can do. i thon at the airport overnight for 3 nights consecutively! haha, i'm really into this mugging, and being a true blue mugger.
thanks jasmine,brian,christina,hector & kevan for being there to mug with me for the different days you were there. it felt better knowing that others are in the same state as me:) and really, thank you for always encouraging me each time i'm near to giving up or feel super stupid,up to a point where i dont believe i cant do it,thank you nocturnal muggers:) love you ppl!
this few days has been rather hectic,,crazy,fun,emotional one for me, i think sooner or later i'll be on the brink of going berserk.
the journey home is usually spent reflecting on what i want,a question that persistently bothers me, cos in the first place, im not very sure of it myself. there's many many things that i'd like to have/wish to happen , but it all depends on my consistent effort, fate n sheer dumb luck. shucks, life is great but all this uncertainty is making me worried over nothing.
