i'm soo pissed now... this is another of those emotional breakdowns that i'm having this holiday. i realise i lead a rather complicated life. well, most normal children will have 1 mother but for me, amazingly i have 4 mums who look after me. haha, before anyone says "LUCKY YOU!" hold your horses (rather your comments,people)
i have my real mother whom i called ibu, eldest aunt called mummy,3rd eldest aunt called mak & youngest aunt called cik. so yea,the idea of having so many 'mums' is cool cos whenever you're pissed at one, you can go to the other to complain.(HOHO, sounds like a spare tyre kinda thing aint it?) but anyway, to be frank, i think i'm closest to my aunts rather than my own mum cos i'm living with them and seeing them more often than im seeing her.and this leads to rather sticky situations where some parties will question who loves me the most and all. (i mean i can't help it i'm so loved but yea, it totally sucks ) and there can be quarrels over the most trivial matters like todae, "who's buying the birthday cake for malina"
Seriously,it doesn't really matter if i celebrate my birthday or not cos i'm used to not even celebrating it at all. I mean my friends remember it & celebrate my birthday more than my family does. but, watever, bottom line is that i got into a stupid quarrel with my mum over a stupid cake cos my aunt insisted on my mum buying the damn cake -_-"
i think i have a very queer family who doesnt really care whether im living or dead. haha, i mean it's good that they "entrust" me the amount of freedom (if you see it that way) but guess wat, sometimes you just feel neglected and like a lost child. Imagine this scenario..
9pm,out with friends.
Handsphones start beeping / ringing. my friends take turns to answer calls by their parents asking for their whereabouts n all.stares at malina's fone *SILENCE*
my parents don't start calling ( wait, SMS i mean ) until it's 11.30pm? hohoh.. means i can enjoy the time in the world going home till late.if im a rebellious no-brain bitch. i'll most probably go loose clubbing & drinking at night or sth. Thank goodness i've been brought up the right way (thanks to my uncle & aunts)
sometimes, i'm green over the concern my mum gives to my bro, (nvm it's annoying she starts calling when its only 9pm) but it goes to show she cares abt him and that she remembers she has a son. sometimes, when im home early ard 9pm & she starts fussing over my bro not being home at 9pm, i'll suddenly ask " why are you so concerned? he's 14 already rite? i dont remember you even enquiring about me now, wait, not even last time" sorry call me insolent child or queen bitch but it irks me why i'm not given the same amount of attention.
it sucks being the middle child at times, you're neither here nor there. but then again, it aids you in your personal growth cos you learn to be independent and not turn out to be a spoilt brat.. like my rude insolent brother, and the many children nowadays.
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i'm very tired now.. i've been reaching home near 1am for the past 4 days,i think my parents think i'm some wild uncontrollable child or have a boyfriend or sth.LOL.it's hilarious to think of it, cos the people i've been hanging out with are mostly jasmine,girlfriend cum fiance n hariz the tweet. so no way either one be my bf-_-"
anyway, i've been missing my last buses it's freaking annoying that i have to walk home on my own, in the quiet,eerie roads of hougang. maybe i should get a bf so that he can send me home, no, a bf with a car/ bike so can we can not worry abt catching the last train/bus home.a bf will be nice enough cos he can help you hold your shopping bags, accompany you to places so you'll never be alone. haha, i think wat i really need is a personal maid that follows me everywhere:D at least a maid can cook for you but a bf can't (not that i think guys cant cook, just that they cant cook well!:P) but NAHH, a chaffeur will be the best solution cos you can always ask to be sent around everywhere.. woohoo..
ok, snap outta it malina. you've got your endless tutorials to do.
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Friday, February 08, 2008
addicted to this song:
What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do
-you don't have any idea, do you?
reminiscing 1:49 PM <3
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Today was B-O-R-I-N-G!
woke up at 11am at my sister's croaking singing (ok, more of screeching) and my dad's persistent shouting for me to wake up to go for my family picnic -_______-" so much for sleeping in...urgh..i slept at 3am the previous night.(i think im really nocturnal)
ok, so i finally went to east coast @ 3.30pm with my sis,n we came just in time for the family to pack up. wheee...how welcoming. so i forced down food quickly n went for escapade, pang seh-ing my sis to go rollerblading on my own. nearly got into an accident with some old aunty who doesnt know how to walk straight. Worse was i was going downslope n had difficulty stopping. Lucky i was quick enough to turn n avoid her pantat, if not i think i'd be at a&e again.
met up with jas n hariz after that & we had a crazy thought to go to the airport & we went there!:D hahaha, we only managed to eat our dinner before we realise that we had to catch the last train, urghh.. so i was separated from hariz n jas cos only the train to pasir ris was left.:( took train to pasir ris @ reached @ 12.15am, realised i missed the last 109 bus, n was contemplating whether i should cab cos i think i spent $50 yest as it is. Yea, i called jas up & found out the 53 that was coming was her bus! how lame is that, i could have taken bus with her at the airport from the start -_-" took the bus with her & alighted at the factory area, before ,out of nowhere, 89 came! phew! save me a cabfare. took bus all the way to hgang mrt, before i realise i missed the last 325 bus :( so i had to walk home alone.shuckss..i ought to apply for my bike license soon~ *vroooooomm vrooom!*
yeap, im meeeting up girlfriend tmr again after my nephew's bdae party! haha, mayb staying out at airport till sat morning :D
anyway...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
reminiscing 3:31 AM <3
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Thursday, February 07, 2008
urghh..i just washed my hair yet its still sticky & hard :S all thanks to my dearest hairstylists for cny, shane kevan & janice who put soo much of chemicals on my hair ( after all, hair gel+wax+hair spray+ my own hair moisturiser arent the most best combination ever)
anyway, i am soo happy.. TODAY'S the last day of SCHOOL FOR THE WEEK! woohooo.. no lesons till next monday! means ill get this chance to have my >8hr of sleep for the next few days :D ohh talk abt being happy, callisto got 1st for cny! GREAT JOB BLUE BIRDS!quite surprised that we got 3rd for the cny performance, considering we were very unprepared for it, taking a total of only 3 days to get things done :) yay, finally, the house gets a reward for all the hard work put in:)
anyway, today was quite a loong day, this year cny eve is quite different from the usual boring ones i had the 17 years of my life cos i end up going home by 4pm cos my friends (mostly chinese) will have to go off early for reunion dinner.
I ate lunch with yw,jon,shane,hector,brian & sylvia @ Swensens', pasir ris. Sheesh, never go to that branch! they cheeated me of my money :( my mushroom cream pasta was soo watery, im so upset over it.. so moral of the story,don't go to the swensens at white sands if you're a fussy eater like me
met up with girlfriend/ best friend forever ,jasmine ho at orchard! we started to chill at lido benches,directly in front of the entrance of one of the of the cinemas. That means we both could see the trailers as the curtain was open. haha, stupid me had to open my big fat mouth & exclaim loudly " EH! I CAN SEE THE TRAILERS" and the ticket uncle grew all possessive and closed the curtains :( haha, stupid selfish man, he is soo persistent that he kept closing the curtain as soon as he sees a gap coming from it -_-" wat a retard.
haha, and so after that i met up with girlfriend no. 2, manda to chill for 1 hr.LOL, she wanted me to sign some cip form for her. hoho, i felt soo important sia! hahaha, so much for me being the "programmes manager" when it's supposed to be sidek. :D but yea, i accompanied manda to bugis street to buy her shirt. Bugis street has cute shirts! lol, there's this shirt with adidas logo but instead of having the word adidas imprinted on it, it says "adios" LOL.how corny. I especially like this particular design that has one silhouette listening to mp3 n sitting on the toilet bowl with the word:"IPood" LOL. i should buy the shirt!:D buy yea, suprisingly, bugis street was quite empty. phew, less tendency into bumping into sticky,smelly people!
haha, after manda left, i met up with bird to go cny shopping at bugis street. went round many times before we can find nice things from the shops that were open. Im so sad i didnt get to buy anything cos the shop that i wanted to go to was closed :( anyway, we bump into sherman n miao & charlene who were cny shopping as well! haha, charlene become lightbulb la :P after shopping,we decided to play pool @ hougang cos it was near my house. But stupid us didn't think that pool people needed to go reunion dinner. hohoho, waste of time travelling :X so we had dinner(malay food!:D) and decided to watch cj7(i think that's the title) omg, hilarious show mann! the humour is super classic lameness! haha, but the storyline was quite sad at the same time,i teared at the part the small boy cried for his daddy :S yeap, went home after that cos it was getting late, n i reached home @ 12! haha,1st cny i come home so late. whee..
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HAAPY belated 18th birthday to me!:D
LOL, last two days have been rather hectic with cny n studying for tests that i didn't even manage to celebrate my birthday properly :S
anyway, i enjoyed my sweet 18th birthday anyhow. thanks everyone who came to sing me birthday song or sms me :) all the smses made my day! :D haha, i didn't receive that many presents but all the simple gestures by my friends were just so heart-warming :))
anyway, 4th feb started off rather well with smses stringing in from 11+plus onwards to wish me a happy bithday :D bird bird called to sing b'dae song with his ever croaky voice, at 12am as well. haha, then i spent my 1st part of my birthday till4am completing tutorials cos i wanted to be a good girl and spent some time revising math as well. How ccool, math test on my b'dae -__-"
anyway, one of my girlfriends didnt go to school cos she was sick :( the day started of with zah n i going high in class during recess, making fun of my new liberal age of 18 and my ability to buy alcohol and cigarettes LEGALLY >_< zah's craziness lead to her ever brilliant idea of a birthday flush for me -_-"
zah:let's have a bdae flush jan,clare,kat,me: wats that? zah: we sing her a birthday song, then after you make your wish you flush the toilet me -_-"
So thats wat my dear beloved classmates did in the 3rd level handicapped toilet for me. hahha, rather corny thought but it was cute! hohoho.it was my 2nd bdae song 3rd bdae song: my class went down for lunch and we sat at the long table. while i was eating with them, out of the blue,they started singing "happy bdae" song to me! haha.. sweet of of 07a201! wats e cool part was that there was enthusiastic j1s around who joined in the birthday song. hoho, the canteen sang me a bdae song. i'm honoured :P
4th bdae wish: nani & nada called to meet me at the canteen to pass my present :D in the end, they bought a slice of blueberry cake from the stall along with a nicepuma tote bag:D hhahaha, nada attempted to sabo me with the cake but i managed to dirty her more.
and fuzzy was soo sweeet!!! he actually went ard for hours to look for my bdae present after school, and pass it to me that same afternoon :D thanks fuzzy!
5th bdae wish: After the cake saboh I, we rushed to lt1 for math test. right after math test, pantat made annoucement "all sc, pls remain behind for a short whilefor a meeting" right after that that pig went on to say "people, todae is malinas bdae, let's sing a bdae song for her!" haha,thanks for the song sc!:D and to kevan for running to west plaza during recess to get the cake :) saboh part II: i was made to eat the cake without using my hands (all of them of intention to smash the cake in my face, but it was a failure cos the cake was cold n hard:D)
bdae wish: stayed behind for callisto cny performance, cos we only started our stuff only the day before and had many things to do,so we stayed till 9+pm to do the costumes. haha, callisto has such good designers :P
saboh part III: stupid malina got tricked so easily by karen & steph & jan:S i was drenched from head to toe with water cooler(which was so freaking cold)
karen: malina, can u help me with the design for the zodiac squirrel? me: huh? oh wat do u need help with? karen: pours water over me from the back!
after some time then do i realise there isnt a squirrel zodiac -_-" malina is so retarded...and i got another bdae song from the callisto birds :D and a guitar sung one from khai n friends who were randomly singing songs at the atrium and suddenly sang bdae song. haha, how nice of them.
so after cny, we went to makan dinner cum celebrate my bdae :D wheee..i had a 3rd cake from mc cafe + meal blanja by the dudes (kevan,shane,hector,brian) and junkai n quek joined us as well! whee.. we took some pics using hector's camera but he hasnt uploaded them yet :S after everyone left, pantat, bird & i stayed at macs to mug like a true meridian mugger!:P the two porks had chem test to study for while i had p&p to chiong for... so we mugged till 12am n left for home after that. woohoo..that was how i celebrated my bdae...memorable eh :))
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Sunday, February 03, 2008
woohooo..i just ended OGL CAMP II yesterday... plain relieve that it went all right.. at least it ended with a bang..unlike ogl camp I that i headed :(
ROARRs.. i slept for 14 straight hours..WOOHOO..12am-2pm, it felt good :D hhaha i deserved the much needed rest after having less than 2 hrs of rest the last few days.. anyway, i felt soo much more relaxed this camp..and had a blast! did many fun,crazy things...
1) i slept at lailai garden with nani ,at the new benches:D (despite the drizzle) 2) i got free popcorn from one of the manhunt contestants during their roadshow, while walking with group 4 for mmm.. (drools over hot bod) 3) ran from somerset to orchard in a big group;while holding balloons 4) kept singing "CRANK THAT" with nani & jun kai after camp :D 5) in the "indian mode" and sings "twinkle twinkle little starsssss"
ok, i kind of forget tomorrow's my birthday cos i was soo tired & into ogl camp till i got a reminder sms from sheqal :D thanks buddy!
i want.. - a new hot wallet! - a new backpack that i can use for school - new shoes (my nike dunks are dying) - a visor :D - more shoesssss - a shopping voucher that i can go shopping for! - my red adidas waterbottle that i lost during O1 :( - a new pencil case :) - a nice, double choco fudge cake( YUMMMMM!) - YOU :P
ok, enoughh, back to maclaurins and intergration.. shucks..
