Saturday, October 27, 2007
reminiscing
12:42 PM <3
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"Yes, but I'm still mulling over what to wear. Typical me. Ah, heck, I consider grey as monochrome and I'm wearing it with my black skinnies. Dun kill me. Malina is killing herself. Everyone wants a piece of her, but I can't help being pissed with her. Hearing so little from her, and her neglecting her own commitment to Campteen[ Stupid name, but yea, its her blood and sweat what, and I hop onboard for her ok]I think she don't know what she wants. That's what I think, and I hope I'm wrong.Here I'm mulling over guys and she is breaking her neck over so many saikang, poor babe.I missed Mal! It's like really nice to see her again! And without her, things are just different! I think I'm too attached to her, not good. hahha, funny that she asked when can we meet again! cuz I din ask since she is so busy!" -Extracted from Jasmine, (my fiance's) blog
OMG. I guess i'm really turning into a pathetic, anti-social, no life freakoo~. aghh, my life is so effeing screwed now..i can't even have good time management now. Seriously, i can't even get a grip of my life.. everything just come in pieces & settle themselves on me. fark it la, i'm loathing my effed up cca now ( the 1st cca) why e hell did i even chose it as an option? y challange yourself until that far? stupid, now its all weighing down on you. you're supposed to join it to continue your passion, which is track. but hell no, joining it prove to be a great mistake, it became a hindrance to training & made you miss the many sessions of training. why oh why malina are you born so stupid? dunno wat else to blame it on. So greedy , you're involved in too many things that you're stretched out. it's not like you're e incredibles or sth. you can't do wonders, no shit.
now im still stuck to many commitments, whole series of orientations, campteen (yes,jas, its a effing stupid name), track,family friends.. i dunno wat comes first.. of course family, but if you keep having things to do in sch, you dont exactly have time to go out with family do you? friends- if you dont even have time for yourself, how about them? i really sorry to my fiance ;) jas, my best bud sheqal , my forkers(soya,ra,za,james), & my class for always pangseh-ing them during outings. WHY? hoho.. only we know *COUghs*
i'm slowly giving everythg up to focus on my As,i've finally decided to quit track (though i'll get bloody moody abt it & depressed) i slowly giving campteen responsibilities to amanda & ahmad mainly, & focusing on sc only(cos there, i dont have an option) so yea.. hope it all goes well.........
jas! remember our candlelight date on thurs! :D
reminiscing
11:43 PM <3
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