Thursday, December 28, 2006
anyway, i changed the song in my blog again. It's Hurt by Christina Aguilera. I just loove her powerful voice! But of course, the song has a deeper meaning behind it.
"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything i just couldn't do"
Such a simple sentence yet it sets me thinking.(habit of mine,maybe due to the Eng Tchr text i did for Os)
The blaming game. Something that all of us have engaged in, in one way or another , to push aside the blame on others just to get yourself off the hook. Even I am guilty of such games,consciously or unconsciously.
Ive always thought that the action of blaming others during a any cock up situation is just cowardly. (ironically, i don't even realise that i do that at times)I guess its just natural for us to overlook our own mistakes but in particular ,can point out others' so easily.its just how how human nature works. Everywhere we go, this is always happening, whether you blame the bus for your being late or even the your peers for the failure of your group project.
For all the failures & happenings that turned out wrong in our lifes, we blame anybody but ourselves. Maybe it's time we should start reflecting & think that maybe, a possibility of us being the cause of the failure of event itself. Just maybe we should try starting the habit. That will be a gd start :)
reminiscing
12:47 AM <3
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
"Lips Of An Angel"
Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying?
Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
reminiscing
12:44 PM <3
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
When i reached hub, the excos were elready starting to clean up & yea, the whole hub looked very very messy. We took like an hour to fold back all the curtains & tinsels & then had a 'bonding' session @ admin room, gossiping abt everything under the sun :D then we had an impromptu movie marathon!!! :D so funn!! i love youthhub & my darling excos!
Anyway, i shall blog abt yesterday's event! We has a Campteen Xmas Party @ JSSC yesterday & it went alrite! :D everyone dressed so smartly & sexy it looked liked a very classic dinner :) hehe.. i shall start blogging from the preparation onwards.
Jasmine & Mariam slept over @ my hse!Soo fun!! Had a gossip session & catching up with each other while we burned cds for the campteeners. slept only at 2plus.. that ended up in us coming late to hub to prepare the deco items. It wasn't my fault ok! I woke up @ 8.45. the other two lazy piggs were still snoring away @ 9.20 can! N there i was nagging @ them to wake up! Wanted to cab down to jssc but after 20min of flagging, we couldnt find a cab! SO we took a bus & changed to train & came 28min late! Opps. Lucky Joshua was nice & sweet about it. (he didnt have much choices, cos the rest were later than us.hahaX) )
12.pm
Started decorating the hub with our custom-made curtains done by cte tailors. ahha.. the curtains rock manN!Yours truly was the irrtating,particular lady boss, making sure the curtains went according to her liking. opps. We had a 'fun' time straining & working on our shoulder muscles to put up all deco. balls/starts/bells up the ceiling. Know i know how it feels to be tall! YAY! Had a lunch break of 1hr n then continued with our deco. :) then, after tt, we still had time to watch Dark Waters in the hub to scare the shit out of ourselves before D&D -_-" Me & Hana didnt watch the movie though, we played cards instead:) My card game was interrupted cos i had to do a dance prac cos our dear GOH -_-" mr weng came late. ahha, had 3-4 dry runstill until 4.50pm before rushing up to change & dress up cos the crowd was starting to arrive.
D&D
The food that was laid out looked rather tempting & we had to refrain ourselves from stealing the food cos we were really really hungry. I swear we were starving cos shuib asked me if we can eat the food like 3-4 times? & thats a real record. LOL. The event went out pretty alrite & the pageant went well! Ahha, we also had the exco to do who's line is it anyway thanks to both joshua & jasimah our two beloed emcees! BEESH! Then we did our performance to sexyback & lose control'. haha, it went pretty alrite i guess :) nth like major screw ups or anythg like tt. :) ahha,other other weng stepping on my foot.lol, thats like nth compared to the worse case scenarios like "what if my heels got stuck between the stage partition?" or if my tube dress is reliable enough. lol. Then we had a mini dance session where everyone is allowed to dance. I didnt go nuts like prom cos i was too tired from running frmo place to place with my high heels. (Yes, i've mastered the skills of running in heels! Cool eh? All my 8 years in tracks i didnt get to master it until now;))
Went to macs after tt to join the campteeners to chill out..didn't exactly sit with the campteeners cos we were too large a grroup for macs to accomodate. sat with mariam,syirr,kapan,rasul & jasmine. Rasul made me jealous & rubbed it into my face tt he went for the workshop by Ryan from So You Think You Can Dance. Darn, if only i had savings i'd have joined him for it! tsk.
that's about it. its a bit too long n draggy if i describe everything that happened in detail. im just waiting for salihin to finish uploading the pics from D&D so that i can load them up here! :D
reminiscing
9:53 PM <3
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
i just feel like crap, can't believe that a new year's coming , yet i havent done much this year..
the world's a stage and the people are the actors & actresses.
wonder how true that is. sometimes i wonder, are the people whom we think we know being their true selves? or are they just another cast of a drama sequel? seriously, i don't know. Wondering abt it, makes me question myself if i'm one of the cast or being a part of the audience? thinking back, i realise that i'm always putting up a front ,hiding behind facade, trying to cover my emotions as much as possible. dont ask me why,its a bad habit of mine.
i look into a mirror & sees a girl,confused,shattered & helpless..
is she the person whom i think she really is?
you, why are u always pretending everything's alrite,
that the world's a perfect place,n everythg's under control.
why must u always hide your feelings, your emotions
just to spare a thought for others & their feelings,
neglecting your very own.
Now look at yourself,
who's laughing now,enjoying life as it is,
getting all the things they've ever wanted,
achieving their aims & goals,
while you cry away at your corner silently?
Who wld rmb your thoughfulness in sheltering others,
the emotions that you kept hidden,
the pain that you went through
& the sacrifices you had to do?
Grow up, be strong
is what you tell yourself,
you shut urself away from the world,
thinking that the world's cruel.
Run away- that's what you always do,
thinking that it will solve everythg.
Sad, you dont even have a clue.
you're destroying yourself bit by bit,
tearing yourself apart slowly.
Yet again,you repeat the mistake,
who can u blame other that your sheer stupidity.
-emo shit
Lacking pia mater.
reminiscing
11:39 PM <3
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
(ok,i'm lazy to edit my blog now,cos it's in chinese n i dunno wat the buttons are for -_-")it's been long since i've updated! Even though O levels has ended, my schedule is crazy n filled up with gatherings etc. woohoo!downside is,ive been going out everyday and the house is left treated like a hotel room, a place for me to shower and rest. There's been many things thats been happening in my life but i'm lazy to update abt all.here are some of the highlights of my holiday:- CAMPTEEN '-06 & GATHERINGS!- SINGAPORE ROCK by h5- PROM(ok la..nt very special)- CHALETSanyway, i did lots of crazy things this holiday i can't believe it myself. lol, i dared to dressed up retro for Singapore Rock! lol,its a biggie alright,cos i usually don't bother to even wear jeans. wahh,i'm starting to bother to dress presentably when gg out nowadays.wat a miracle! last time, i used to wear t-shirt & shorts + sandals to go out! how unglam is tt? ahha, influence of my best bud,jac,maybe.i'm going out @ 10am n reaching home @ 12am nowadays. tsk, i have a feeling my parents thk im beyond control or sth.LOL, hey, i still behave well in public ok? im still guai & innocent &amp; mariam can vouch for tt! ;D Oh ya, i can't imagine i've been meeting mariam nearly everyday~ tsk. last time, it was me n jac mugging. now, i se mary's face everyday,we're sick of each other already.lol,geez,it makes it sound like we're like lesbians or sth. tsk. don't get me wrong, it's just a sisterhOod thingy.LOL.i'm still into guys,don't worry:Dgrandma mariam introduced me sth bad.:/ ahha.i told myself last time that i'd very smoke,drink & drive(together).ok,grandma ordered a LYCHEE martini when we went out. I tasted her drink & a friend's drink(both alcoholic). eekks.. i broke my pact & tried both drinks,which are terrible & disgusting. why do people drink? it tastes soo yucky & makes u have bad ,stinky breath. tsk. tt's enough for me, plus, i did sth i regretted after that. so kids, nvr drink & drive(okok, i didn't get to drive cos im 16,but it's nicer to say it together as a phrase.lol) OHOH! the best part is that, i got a joB!ahha,wonderful rite,when people are enjoying what's left of their holidays. -_-" but nvm, i do need to earn some money for me to save & spend (the irony!) & sign up for dance lessons! mariam,liane & i all got jobs @ ritz carlton,waitressing. ahha, but the sad thing is, it will only start next week :X. I got another job to fill in for now :) all thanks to hanny! ahha..i'm ms nurmalina ,sales executive of ______company. woohoo, got namecard ok!(alright,it's isn't a personal namecard la,sadly.haha) Sounds soo profound & cool rite? haha,i'm starting it soon~ wish me luck all!CALL ME,BEEP ME, or EMAIL me if u have relatives selling,buying or even dunno what to do with their houses! I,sales executive, will surely help u!:) rmb ok?
reminiscing
1:35 AM <3
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"Almost Here"(feat. Brian McFadden)
Did I hear you right'cause
I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you
I'm close to tears'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
reminiscing
12:51 AM <3
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