Time seem to be passing by soo quickly, that in a few hours time,it'll be a new year & soon ,school's going to open & back to mugging for O levels. :/ Oh my, that is soo fast! I can't believe now that Orientation is all over, bio d.t is over. *phew* relieved in a way :)

Yesterday was a superly tiring day, ran from place to place, I think i logged in and out of Orientation 3 times! Opps. ahha,had to leave for bio in the morning & had to focus on bio amidst all the cheers the sec 1s were screaming. Unfortunately, Cheering sessions for sec 1s clashed with bio test.how wonderful! Then i had to log out again for training cos jiao lian was teaching some gym workout to us & i also wanted to go for it:)
After that i had to leave for dance rehearsal -_-" how nice, aching all over & having to dance. was soo dead & sleepy while waiting for sb's turn to dance. & we did average i guess,no experience like the malay dancers. Anyway, the venue is sooo not Marina bay, wth cheat my feelings. It's at esplanade area this ulu end of esplanade. WOW! feel more cheated. lol. ahha,heck. as long as i can go partying after dance that'll do :)


H A P P Y N E W Y E A R A L L!!!

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8:00 AM <3

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I just attended a 2 days 1 night camp leaders' camp. It was kind of a short camp,but it was fun! ^-^ met a few new people ,mostly the new sec 1 & 2 student leaders:) cos know most of the ppl already so it was kind of a bonding session between 3 ldrship bodies,(i LikE!)
my group was called Rudolph! so cute rite? *grins* & as quoted by a FEW people, our grp instr was soo called the most "hot-looking guy" there. (anyway, there were only abt 5 guys, lol.) & someone was jealous tt me & ducky got him as our instr. *looks at WT*

anyway, the games were ORIGINAL & cool! first & last time i saw a raw chicken flew!;) & the 2nd day's 3 hr to PSLs was fun despite us making it an impromptu planning .yay! & we played Truth or Dare! ahha, duck had to ask strangers whether she is pretty & Fragrance had to ask a kid & borrow his shades! :D & me & mazmo were dared(all thanks to jannah) to run all the way to the life guard house to ask for the lifeguard's no. & ask him to wave to the PSLs who were like sooo far away ) ahha, guess wat? the dare was kind of easy & worth it considering the lifeguard was HOT! mazmo can vouch for tt :P ahha, so to all psls who wanted to try & make me & mazmo "suffer & embarrass ourselves", it was unsuccessful. muhahaha cos we benefitted from it ;P.

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9:25 PM <3

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11:14 PM <3

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WOW.. eve of a festive occassion & im superly pissed. Thank you very much to those people who've made this possible & spoilt my mood. Thank you!I truly appreciate it.Since you've made me pissed OFF, it's only right that I'm allowed to express my feelings.

Anger,disappointment,frustration,all these emotions mixed up together, making my blood boil. Worse, boil with rage. Seriously, I feel really cheated, i'm in fact disgusted by what i've heard. Bloody hell! lead by example? MY ARSE.

Please practise what you've preached. What happened to being professional? What happened to being matured?What happened to all that? The only RATIONALE i can give is that you have left your brains back at home. I pity you then. You lead a life much worse than me. At least, i've got a brain, wait, i've got a heart too. You may claim you have one too, but your heart is made of stone. Just a lump of clay with no value. A lump of clay with no significant.

OPPS...i've been very accurate, haven't i? So no offence if you are reading this & feel that i'm talking about you, cos i feel that whatever that YOU have done seriously affected a LOT of people. A LOT. And what's worse, you've hurt my peers,people whom i called friends. Hold on,I thought you are my friend.OK,so i thought wrong. mistake 1.

mistake 2. I've been tolerating you & your nonsense,excuses & complaints. Ive been the middle man all these while, the peacemaker,the mediator,even to the extent of thinking that you are in the right since you're more experienced or so they say.You do things behind my back, putting up a mask in front of me.Cagado! If you think you are something, why not do it in my presence? Save the trouble. Save all of us from the complications. Save me from making my blood boil only hours later.

mistake 3. I thought you are more capable than what you did. SOmehow, You've proved to me, to my peers, what a mean human being you are. Shame on you. You ought to be shot. *bang!* haha.
The respect that I've always given to you is now gone. It doesn't matter if you've got a high profile.Does it? You may think otherwise, but I don't really care for ranking & status. To hell with all that. Guess what? All these titles & positions are just there to make US humans feel that we are something, something big & worth it. & maybe gives you the automatic kind of respect people have for you when they hear you've got a high pos.whatever~

To me,its all wasted,wasted down the drain,if you haven't got a brain much less being thoughtful & considerate. I just can't pretend that it never happened. Ive been doing that too much,I've been giving you the chance that you never make use of. I've been very patient & tolerant,but somehow,you're testing my limit.

Oh ,what is happening?How do you expect me to work with you? Well..like I've always said to others "Be professional,don't put work & personal stuff together" I shall stick to what I've said. AT LEAST , I practised/am practising/have practised /& definitely will practise what I preached. DO YOU?

You are seriously cosa fastidiosa!

Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope you'll have a good time during Christmas tmr. HOPE you die & choke from eating too much turkey. Hope that you have gravy poured on your dress or whatever you'll be wearing . lol.ok, that's lame. but I shan't bear any GRUDGES. i'm not petty, I shall be my usual self,though you've left a few scars on me,& a lasting impression. Don't blame me for being judgemental now, blame yourself for your actions. You may think i'm biased but well,haven't you been too?

ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES. -remember that!

J o d e r !


Anyway,just, just another point to add, if anyone who reads this tends to disagree with me or unhappy about it, pls, confront or tell me. You are more than welcome to do so.Just to add, i analyse & observe. I do not just say because i'm unhappy, but also because there are incidents that show your actions & made me come to the conclusions.

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6:21 PM <3

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Crazy- Simple Plan

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me



Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

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8:59 PM <3

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R E P L Y T A G G I E S . . .

faizah: ahha ..but i thk i'll rot to death if its that long! & you arr..post e m a l comments on my
guestbk -_-"
wall:WALL! you take care ya! :)i'll pass you ur prezzie after camp!hehe
j-wen: hello crazy woman!missed me eh? ;)
ducky:QUACK! will return u ur fbts! & i didnt meet her! ahha..fate is good to me :D
tjung!: yeap, we both deserve round of applause for our accomplishment! :D *gives
kindergarden clap!* -_-"

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8:11 PM <3

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Brrrr...it's C O L D out here!

that was how Genting Highland was, cold & freezing. i finally went for a holiday & had a break! *yayness!* it was short though,3 days 2nights, half the time spent travelling. wonderful!
i shan't complain though, i was M.I.A for 3 days! im glad i had a break. though before that i was rushing through all my work + proposals so that i would not be thinking of all the things i was supposed to do while in Genting.

The feeling of being free & having nothing to do is soo NICE! heh. ok, i admit, i haven't got much of a life,like going out everyday to shop & hang out, whatever they call it. but in a way, i do not mind leading the life i'm living now, rather than being soo free & doin nothing useful & productive. n i mugged, TRIED, during the journey to Genting. not bad, ahha, i was forcing myself to do so with my silly cousins making a din in the car.

discipline= doing something that you do not want but benefits you!

kept telling myself that 'cos of upcoming D.T for a math! *gulps* funny that you can enjoy doing that subject(at times)but still flunk it.anyway, once,we were on the way up to Genting, i was snapping pics of the beatiful natural scenery of Genting. shall post it up when i have the time.

I realised after this trip how lucky i am being a Singaporean & living in S'pore. (do not ask me why i thought of this.my brain's like this) can you imagine living in a big country & having to travel very long & far from place to place? i'd just die of being sick from travelling everyday. & i'd prefer all the local facilities,thank you very much. :)

*sobs* i'm already missing the feeling of having got nothing to do & no one bothering you for anything): ok, back to reality.. have got a long list of things to do before the start of a New Year.. *sigh* i just can't wait for O levels to be over! lol..i'm thinking very far here. but can you imagine how free you'd feel & you'll be after O's having got nothing to mug for for at least a few weeks to 3 months plus. All the sec 4 grads are enjoying it now.. can't wait for my turn..

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11:24 PM <3

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i want to blog abt LDRS chalet,but i'm lazy n got lots to do now. ahha, me & ace pulled a prank on chief n ldrs :) shant elaborate. i nearly suffocated inhaling smoke from bbq -_-" can u imagine if i had really suffocated n hospitalized or something? that would have been hilarious. Imagine headlines " BBQ smoke caused a girl to choke." dots. boring headline anyway. ahha. have got a long list of things to do.

anyway, i shall update abt trg. went for trg after chalet ,soo tired from bbq-ing n all. reached hm at 12. felt feverish & i wore a jacket to sleep plus blanket. woke up an hour later perspiring badly.duh~ n dragged myself for trg & was a few min late. surprise surprise .new year resolution: be punctual for any trgs & meetings. :)

was soo tired tt i was sleep-warming up . ahha..not to that extent, but my mind was blank,not even thking of anythg. cool ah..i was enlightened or watever u call it.or reach the stage of nirvana.lol.ok tt's E M A L. ahha i learnt from deborah.(its lame ,juz spelt backwards!cool rite?im amused)& did slope training! soo cool! but was upset n pissed cos i had hamstring pain. i nearly cried of frustration, but must control. cannot lose face. ahha..

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8:46 PM <3

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i have just fully exercised my eye power,proving & 'unleashing' my potential & discovering ive got a talent for eye power. dots. seriously, i can be cyclopes mann. the collation of survey , spending hours staring hard on the screen really proved that i can train my eye power when i want to. lol.

i should be sleeping by now but my eyes are soo hardworking that they want to practice their"eye power" & stare at the computer screen.-_-" practising my ciliary muscles. (: only bio students know what im talking about.

anyway, been watching sea games lately. singapore's doing very well i must say. proud of the athletes. there were some dark horses, there were most who are expected to get the medals. all the hard work of trainings paid off.. of course, there are some who didnt do up to expectations & were disappointed. sometimes i wonder " why things turn out that way? sometimes the way that you didnt want it to be?" that leads me into thinking ," choices have consequences." (my favourite phase @ the moment)
its as easy as, if you want to reah a goal, you have got to work hard for it, even if it means sacrificing a few things. after all, the outcome will definitely be worth it. dont ask me why im suddenly sounding a little philosophical,its juz facts that i'm listing out. tskk..im feeeling sleepy already & i shall rest my eyes (:

oh ya,i suddenly remembered my favourite quote last time :

"F A I L U R E doesnt mean that you have achieved nothing. It means you have L E A R N T something."
-(some1 who's name ive forgotten :/)

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