reply taggies. hehe..gotta go prepare malay Os again after this. hehe..can say im having interval break.

-pillar: hellO!cheer up k? we shall go out after tmr! thanks for accompanying me mug @ d lib.
-yusin: hey peel-face-woman! =D ill upload d pics soon! but not now..hehe n i heard abt some *ahem* wanting to blackmail my pillar ar? HAWKER! muahaha
-wenn`: hello! thanks for comforting me! had fun on thurs! eh, lets go out during hols!=) added u already. will send d pics soon!
-burungBESAR: hello! semoga berjaya dalam peperiksaan O level awak, walaupun saya saya awak tidak perlukan sokongan & galakan ini(minta maaf jika terdapat kesalahan dalam bahasa)
-faizah: chiefy chief! hehe. semoga berjaya dalam peperiksaan Os kamu juga! kita pergi geylang selepas itu ok! buka puasa sama-sama! *yayness* tapi mesti pandai X-ing jalan raya k! muahaha
-unknown: hello! sorry dunno u. hmm..mayb u shd leave ur name ya? thanks for hopping by anyway :)

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this is bad.. im writing yet another -ve entry. cant help it, life's been sucky for d past few days. mayb its me, mayb its fate, or juz Life's like tt. hrmph.. a person can only take soo much in her hands.

Tues 25/10
it was hectic day cos i was suppose to be @ 3 places @ d same time. *clap hands* how did i do it? cut myself up into pieces? lol. if only i could,1st had d CNY auditions (WE GOT IN!) yayness, 3N rocks! hah.. kinda predicted they'll be impressed la. AHHA
d trail or amazing race thingy was kinda ok i guess. it felt like OAC all over again, this time, me inculded in d class act.(yay!) then did d cheers we did for OAC. all the memories came flooding back to my mind, how i missed those times. my grp came back last n made every1 wait. LOL. ok it wasnt on purpose, juz tt we've got ppl who are asthmatic so we dun see any pt in running n making her have asthma attack. heh. see we're soo considerate. but d amazing race dragged till 1.50pm n me n d other ldrs came late for d combined pc,psl & cca ldrs camp briefing. was already worried cos needed to set up d obs. for bely sch too. then it rained like crazy (soo scary) could see d lighting & d whole sch looked really dark due to lousy yellow light bulbs which weren't very gd.

thurs 27/10
ok..yest sucked. badly. in record of my life, i've cried for 3 diff things in one day. WOW. i cat believe i did tt. like there was juz too many things to settle n all n worse d things act. got screwed up n i was held responsible for it. *sigh* they say ldrship is a priviledge but wat many dun noe is tt, behind those credits & recognition( only sometimes), a LOT of work + effort is needed. im sad,disappointed, angry ,pissed off with the turn out of yest.
d farewell ceremony for ms susan leong was soo sad n heart warming! every1 cried in d hall. tt was a 1st. n our performance for her was gd! thanks to all d pcs,psls & cca ldrs who made this possible! =)
sth screwed up tt made me really angry n cursed like mad..hrmph. i cant stand it. i cant stand u @ times. u can be soo nice @ one moment & be such a devil d other. wats ur *toot* prob? i am trying my best to do up to ur expectation ok. yes,it IS partly my fault but Y must u be superly irritating n make my life hell most of d time? i have to endure u n ur nonsense for like soo many things. ive been very patient as it is, but wat makes u thk tt we actually wanted to take tt stupid thing away n do a dishonest act? oh PULEEZ, i've got integerity & honesty in d 1st place. i dun do such dishonest n shameful things. -_-" tt's like insulting me as it is ok n i wun accept tt. u may thk i can tolerate u n ur nonsense, yes, ive always been making d effort not only cos im a ldr but also cos of d respect of who u are. if not for tt,i'd have told u off long time ago. im juz waiting for d time n moment before i burst to a ritcher scale of >8. hopefully tt wun happen. if it does, it'd be ugly & no doubt, u'll make my life more miserable.
COrrection : my life is miserable as it is with u playing tt MAJOR role in it

//- pissed off *

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today was a BAD horrible, disgusting, n juz not my day. had to do ppl's interview n cny rehearsal n supposed to do psl rehearsal. but didnt go for psl cos had to choose the confirmed new batch of psls.. was a really mentally exhausting exercise. me,mazmo n carrot nearly died choosing the psls,esp. d sec 1s! -ahha, i wonder y

anyway, im very disappointed todae. cos someone whom i really give much respect to juz disappointed me with their action. it's really heartbreaking when one whom u look up to juz disappoint u with their tactless behavior. i cant stand it. im soo freaking pissed off. in front of a lot of ppl, i got humiliated. i was embarassed, *tooting* arse. hrmPH. ive finally seen d light and d ugly side of u. im soo thankful tt god has shown me ur U-G-L-Y n d monster u are, earlier so tt i wont be disappointed later on. sigh..i wonder how n why ive offended you tt uve got to write it in black n white. i didnt mind ur doin so until u treated me like dirt shortly after ive coooled myself down,reassuring tt there's a reason behind everythg.

im not one of those who jump to conclusions very easily, im reasonable enough to analyse d situation ok.. but i thk ur too much lately. u said i shd take abreak this year frm track so tt i can recover. thus tt is y i get more involved in my ldrship duties so as to compensate watever ive always missed. but hell no, u thk tt im wasting my time, thk tt i could have gone far for track thk ive got d potential.
MY FOOT. all d while ive gone for trainings i couldnt participate cos i was injured n u dun give a *toot* damn. u dun seem to realise how much effort ive put in. do u even noe tt for watever trgs ive missed i actually self-trained? do u? of course u dun, u dun even care, ur blinded by ur own goals, ur own targets, ur own life. arghh..i dunno y im wasting my time getting angry over this. im juz very disappointed i guess tt u actually are cruel to make me go thru this.

ive recovered n i wan to start afresh for track. but ur not even giving me a chance to do so! ur attitude juz stinks,it turns me off. its true wat ps says. hrmph. tt's y i prefer to train by myself, without any1's company. cos i get to relax more n not see d diff attitudes of ppl. it juz test my patience.u may thk im always ok with everythg cos im not petty watsoever but then again there are things wat u call as LIMITS.

i dun care about u. i wun even care of ur attitude towards me,i shall be heartless n emotionless in front of u though ill still respect u for who u are.im gonna train hard for track,im gonna make sure i get my pb. u thking tt i cant make make me more determined to prove u wrong. u thk ur discouraging me but somehow d will for me to achieve my goal is now greater. ahh.. im gonna prove to u tt i can juggle between my studies, track n ldrship responsibilities. i'll make sure tt happens, n its not empty talk. i'll work towards tt, not to only prove u wrong, but to show tt i am capable of doin so.

the greatest enemy is within urself.
the race is not against others, but against time. - SPRINT

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9:45 PM <3

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i realise tt for d last few days, though it has been tiring, ive enjoyed myself n cherished every moment of it. all the times spent with friends were not wasted, but remembered as they're wonderful memories to keep, for me to treasure for life.

went to library with my wall..hehe..she was looking for d research thingy while i was trying my best to do wat i can in preparing for malay Os' :( tsk.. its coming in a few days time.. next mon in fact! argh..horrors of d horrors..ahha..so little time soo much to do. anyway, me n wall were entertaining ourselves in d lib. kinda noisy cos we were laughing away with stupid jokes & gossips. opps.. disgressed a lot of times! heh. but i helped wall with her knots..ahha..see im soo pro @ it! =P

we were using synthetic rope to do knots..lol..pretty rope. n we inferred tt it is a gd weapon for those who wanna kidnap ppl..lol n we thought we scared ppl cos wall had d rope tangled up in her hands -_-" surprise surprise``` it takes a lot of patience to teach ;)

anyway, i read one of campers notebk..hehe
[disclaimer: subject shall not be named to protect her identity ]
n she had funny names for her knots; like clove hitch = float beach n reef knot= brief knot
lmao*- soo funny! she's soo cute la! mayb shes hard of hearing or the place too noisy so cant hear clearly.hehe

anyway, wall, i had fun todae! we shd go out somemore ya! n then can teach u to cycle ! ahha..n can crap d whole day..wheee````

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9:25 PM <3

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tiring tiring day. practically dragged myself to sch. (ok correction,i DUN drag my feet,i'm not THAT lazy of a person) was still tired frm yest. hrmph. for e god-knows-how-many times i've been break my fast outside hm :( tsk. no1 at hm says anythg but im not happy for doin so. it's a total diff feeling breaking fast in sch n at hm. breaking fast in d middle of nowhere on d way hm is really frustrating, cos u can soo imagine d whole family already eating happily- together. whereas, when u break fast outside,ur stranded at d bus stop, waiting for d darn bus. how pathetic. hah. i soo hope i wun have to do this again. my latest record for reaching hm late during sch days was 8pm, wonder if i can break tt.

anyway, i had an outburst of anger yest. TSKK. like i soo wanted tt to happen. felt my body shaking with anger, soo pissed off after being soo patient n closing one eye for a LOT of things. ahha la.c.k described my outburts as " genuinely angry" -_-". diao. who wouldnt?

anyway, today was a crazy dae! 1st had pc & psl mtg regarding the ppl's situational test! hehe. it was d highlight of d day! soo funny! all d pcs & psls turned naughty for d afternoon to act out different scenarios. ahha, we acted like pros tt ppls were stumped by us! teehee..i thk d best stops were at attire station, tender loving care(tt's where i was!) n d cheering station. tlc was soo fun! i was with a.c.e, n other crazy sec 2 pcs n psls. acted situations to make ppl counsel us! hehe.... some were good, some impressive, some...ermm... cannot make it! opps, ok la they did try at least =) but funny thg was tt me n ace were in d same rm,n many campers were also ppl. sooo ya...normal reaction frm them
n i especially did situational at one pt cos i wanted to test *toot*'s abilities . soo disappointing, thk she was traumatised la..see me act depressed.lol.she went to another pc who was "stressed out" but it was a goood goood time d psls & pcs had! we were practically giving each other entertainment whilst testing ppl's skills. hehe hmm..mayb we shd have more of this! muahaha, or better,pc & psl outing!

hmmm.. got all d work coming in already, all d responsibilities tt has been postponed or delayed is slowly in d process of being worked on. dunno to start frm which one. heh. i cant wait for psl camp!! heee ..psls totally rock =)

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7:48 PM <3

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i realise that the year pass by really quickly,that i barely have time to reflect on wat ive done for d past 10 months. i still cant believe that events,big & small, like orientation, PSGM, oac, keep fit day, open hse,end year exams are over n that i've received back my papers. goodness. how time really flies. tsk tsk. cant say im happy of my results though,but i shdnt brood over it either i guess. cant believe tt sch holidays are starting in a week's time. it only seemed like yest i was mugging away till wee hours @ h'gang macs. i miss doin tt. i wanna mug!! ahha..i thk i'm sick or sth.

anyway, today was such a tiring,painful,exhausting & lousy day for me. got back my bio papers which was a total disappointment :( i actually had a good self-control of my emotions in d hall,not bad ar.. d whole cohort didnt do very fantastically(got such a word?)for bio. lowest msg was a b4 i thk. *gulps* tt was how bad we did.anyway, was very gloomy and all @ 1st level empty corridor(cos not many ppl there) but then dearest wl came to d rescue & gave words of wisdom n also bev, n p. soo sweet,im touched by their concern n words of encouragement. i realise sth, there is no use crying over spilt milk. wat's done is done. as long as u thk uve tried ur best it's ok!(okok, tt depends) n once we are faced with a disappointment or a failure, we shdnt brood over it. instead, we shd think of ways to overcome it. identify ur weaknesses, practice on it, work on it.( i realise i sound like a nag here heh)

ya, had trg today too. my 1st trg after sooooooo long. did a different route today. find me performance to day Ok only. d 1st part of d run, felt as though my legs were soo heavy cos it was running upslope.. ya, then after d run did drills =) but was tired & dehydrated already ...sobs... self-discipline was reallly impt mann..hehe..didnt want to continue but 1st trg mahh. then did exercises n all & finished! after trg , found out tt hamstring was swollen again! sobs..i thought i was already normal?! im worried.. am i not recovering?

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8:22 PM <3

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Todae has been an active,tiring but fun dae for mua!

1) i fnally ran 3km with vi after soooooooooooo long of not trainin!
2) i finally get to rockclimb again after missing it during oac
3) i finally got e feeling of dehydration n tiredness while fasting n running

lol.i was half dead by the time i got hm from all those acts. lack of water & nutrition to fill me stomach n had to wait till 6.50++ i forgot exact time la.

but it was such an achievable day! yayness! got to do watever i wanted to. wheeeeeeeeeee

running 3 km was fun @ first.i felt tt i was flying away..lol.. talk about not running for soo darn long. but suddenly felt stitch coming when i was reaching sch. darn! so retarded n e weather was SUPERLY hot! ahha ok it was stupid of me n vi to run @ 9++ cos we were both late! hehe we've go no1 but ourselves to blame. heh was superly dehydrated mann. my soles of my shoes was soo hot! well considering tt e temp was a gd & sunny 37deg! dunno if its true,source frm toh. ya! luckily i brought sandals so i changed quickly outta my shoes! hehe . then went canteen accompany vi to drink. wahh...e temptation was sooo great mann.. there she was drinking away a COLD drink n i was dehydrated. ahha.. really tested me.. mayb its god's way of seeing if i can resist it..but i fought it! yay! *claps hands*

then after tt went to set up rockwall! wheee~~~~!!! luckily e guy who was s'posed to check e rock wall to see if its safe checked it yest. =)+)

then poon taught us a lot..ahha i learnt a lot from it. u noe u can actually use a sling n karabiner n attach it to urself n e wall to rest!! how cool is tt! i wanted to try but was soo tired n dying of dehydration so didnt do it. hee..im so glad i did survived todae..means hopefully i can survive friday's trg!! hehe.. prays hard.. gtg now,watching movie with siblings..ahha like bonding session! >_<

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we have come to the closing ceremony of End YEar Examinations 2005.

*Hits GONG*

End Year Examinations is officially finished!

*throws confetti*

YAYNESS!

ahha. dots. anyway,i cant believe i wun be mugging away no more,not for now. im already darn bored now.

mon
had a math paper. hrmph.i was sooo stupid i didnt see e solution to e sum till e last moment *bangs head* then no time to complete! so sadd..boohoo.

tues
had lit...oh it was fun writing! i love lit!! 12th nite rocks! but liking it is one thing .. scoring for it is another. hehe.. finally over!!!me n nee were like raising our hands n waving madly when they collected our papers! lol..then gay saw n laughed cos e whole class grinned like crazy.wheee`

then had 1st meeting with campers & refresher course. shant elaborate soo much on tt. later got some campers go see.ahha.

anyway,

Congrats to those who made it to ltc. watever it is, do ur best & excel n make e best of ur experience. Ltc can be very fun if u make e most of it. be open minded & +ve thking to learnin new skills. of course, teamwork is most impt to ensure tt. Hope & looking forward to seeing e campers of 2005-2006 & do UNLEASH your potential.

muahaha. hey.i mean it.

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9:39 PM <3

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im feeling superly tired now. haiz lack of sleep for e last few days, mugging away for papers.

wed- SS & e math.
ok i guess. did try spotting some qns n it came out! whee`` hope i didnt screw e math.

thurs- geog & chem
geog was ok too n e qns i tried spotting did come out! i'm soo gd! ahha.. but screwed chem badly. so sadd. didnt noe how to do e chem calculation.i'm disappointed. mugged @ macs from 8pm-1am. yeaps then me n sis walked hm. i shd have done tt long time ago mann. sitting there to study was better as i was more focussed.

friday-todae bio & lit
bio was a total disaster! i was confused bout my facts! :( hopefully,i did ok. so saddening, i practically mugged from 9pm-4am for bio & didnt thk i did well. *hrmph* then only had 1hr of sleep of nite time. luckily had 2hr of afternoon nap b4 tt. but i was quite awake actually! ahha.. funnny ..but after bio paper i was feeling irritated.god knows why,mayb due to lack of sleep, mayb cos of bio. then crapped with sarah ho! n went for lit paper!! i lurve lit! it was quite an average paper =) (finally!)

after paper, i dragged jasimah to go for my last physio appt with me. hehe. it was quite a painful n memorable last appt. lol. cos she was trying to break e knots of e muscle near my knee. n she used e needle thingy! *talk bout pain* ahha but she said im almost fully recovered! yayness! juz nd my strength back.

then we headed down to JSSC n saw siti! lol. we crapped for like 1hr while waiting for e rest to come. during mtg i was like half dead already soo shagged n sleepy. e whole mtg dragged till like 6.50 ard there. ahha,i was kinda feeling a lil irritated & pity shiwei(ahha) cos always digress topic. then i was thkin it wasnt much of a productive work done then. i could have spent it with sleeping mann. ahha, then broke fast with them @ tp n went hm. actually planned to shower n sleep, but now ive got to do some stuff. sigh. its never-ending list of things to do. but i cant wait for tues!! last paper!!whee!!

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9:14 PM <3

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This is is soo nice!!! Go listen to it! So motivating!

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