heart aches
in confusion
cant hold on
cant take it anymore
slowly growing weak
like an ice melting
the candle inside me
slowly extinguish
i wanna run away
Away from this all
away from the confusion
away from the books
away from reality
+nanabanana+ slithers away quietly
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8:01 PM <3
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
anyway,actually it doesnt really matter of wat pos we have for oal. we shd juz be thankful for bein one in e first place. i noe some are not happy with the dept. they're in(mayb due to some reasons),but then again,we shd have an open mindset & try to enjoy n experience to work with e dept we're in. we shouldnt jugde the different names of the dept.for all u noe, u'll lurve ur dept n enjoy working with the ppl there .always thk +ve =) as for e new maintenance dept,maintenance ROCK ok! lol..ok other than e cleaning part,it's nice!i had nice wonderful times bein e understudy for maintenance.(also cos i have nice wonderful maintenance leaders*yayness*) yeaps, so we shd work together n unite as oal 05-06 n make sure ltc 05,oac 06 rocks & an unforgettable experience!*yay*
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7:15 PM <3
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ok..finally updating sth. actually, been bz with schwork nowadays so heck bout updating my blog for now. hehe.. currently on study break from doin emaths for nearly a whole day. Yayness! im so proud of myself. think i'm keeping on track for now..aint involved in anything so i can focus on studies which were going down e drain ... seriously rubbish;attrocious! hopefully by end of year i'll improve to average b-a grade. Hopefully...ok..i'm really proud of myself these past few days..ahha..first of all,i've been self-training! whee` at least do 20min run @ least 3 times a wk. yay! ahha..been fighting e slackerism side of me!lol. n i realise its true tt after runnin u'll feel more alert. it really works..at least for me. though tired physically, mentally ill feel more alert n awake .hehe. yeap..so i shall continue with my runs as it help me :) n for a record time, i slept for e longest ever since sch reopened!slept like a log on fri frm 6-10pm.,had dinner n did some e maths,slept again frm 1-10am! omg! i'm such a pigg! ahha.. but then again i hadnt been sleepin a lot for e past wk, doin work n mugging for bio ct. so my mum was soo nice as to like me sleep like a log for e wkend. ahha. if only there's such a thing as storing up sleeping time in ur body for later use. lol. that would be very useful for me!okies, tt's all for now. gotta go continue doin e math n do revision for lit eng tchr.(sigh,sad tt i dun really like e bk)
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6:02 PM <3
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Efforts of purpose resolute and unvarying
Moving along the pathway of outcome
Unremitting to the goal intended
No consideration of straying
Determined through the delays and frustrations
Inspiration fuels the course
Stumbling occasionally in pursuit…
on target nonetheless
Through the storms,
and merciless encounters…
a mind in focus and a heart beats still
Covered grounds conquered with insistence
No way I shall be turning back
Too much to lose is at stake
Surrender is not my forte
In it to the finish, I am…
from the beginning, that was the plan
Triumph and accomplishment wait…
inside perseverance’s gate
The elation of the proverbial light…
It’s something worth experiencing again and again
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5:55 PM <3
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8th august.celebrated nat dae in sch. had too many things gg on @ e same time,had to be at diff places @ e same time. hectic dae. yeap..1st had nat dae celebration. was on duty for attendance marking. ahha..me,yusin n amelia; VIP for e day..lol..e important ppl as mentioned by many.wakakaka..ahha basically cos we play an impt role not to let e prize presentation get screwed. ya..kinda crucial. was running ard lookin for the prize winners who either disappeared or disappeared.lol. ya..i was like thking y e heck wasnt there like a walkie talkie?(soon after i realise we could use our fones) thks,after running up n down 3 storeys n across from one end to another.ahha. we were perspiring like crazy mann..n quite crazy la, carryin out diff instructions by diff ppl.which ended up in me getting scolded cos apparently i wasnt suppose to do watever i was doin. wow..like e irony ...one auithority told me to do it, n e next moment another authority says another. crap.. then got scolded as though its my fault. oh ya.. it is..for working w u..lol. but everything went well in e end! yay! 3 cheers for VIP! lol. of course,e teachers played a part! but i embarrassed myself again in front of herr! argh...1st she thought i was traumatised, now it wasnt anything big but still paiseh la. like i was soo worried she wun come in time to rcv e next award so went to look for her n so called rushed her. *gulps* ok..i shall forget all bout them..shall try la..already embarrassed nyself sooo many times. *turns red*
e celebration was ok, but sadly i didnt get to join my class! *boohoo* also cos i couldnt find 3n among e big mass of ppl! so i was ard w e prize winner n juz blend in..ahha..though it was quite hard cos i was all white n e rest were red n white..lol. then had debrief which took some time. then i rushed down to jssc for campteen gathering!
yeap..reached there @ 12.50. ahha.50min late from intended time to reach there. then desmond blanja me! ahha..but i felt soo bad but since he insist..*grins* then took pics with e other exco members :) havent uploaded e pics guys !sorry i lost my usb cable..boohoo! ya..then e cough virus soon found a place in my throat n i got cough,(all thks to shuib,ahha.)actually i already had a bit a cough previously ,so with more virus ard me i got cough. ahha..so mr nacli,dun nd to be so sorry bout it. then i did registration duty,which was quite slack cos ppl come 1 by one slowly,so wasnt a rush . :) then me,nad & shuib were waiting like idiots outside mph n crapping ard.hehe..finally went in to join e rest for our introduction n all. :) all e ppl were quite fun to be with.whee``
had e tangle e untangle game which turn out to be unsuccessful for my group. cos we somehow got TOO tangled up.lol. so funny` then we juz let go n screamed as though we did already untangle ourselves.lol..e other grp thought we really finished.heh. gotcha!
then we ate n i had to leave for e other gathering ,e track one in sch. came juz in time for e item. *phew* gd sense of timing malina! heeeeeee..then sang song n ate n then clear up n pack food. n pack more food then went hm instead of joining e camteen exco to town. gtg now..gg ndp celebration =)
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3:11 PM <3
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okok..i havent been updating..been bz...yeaps..anyway, had flag day on 6th august. for singapore cancer society. yeaps..n lots of ppl did cip for them.like ij had e whoole school gg for it so can u imagine how pathetic my class looked among them. ahha..but 3n still rocks! =) we went from chinatown to harbourfront to dhoby gaut to orchard...but didnt collect much..many cos theres too many ppl collecting n also from e nkf thingy. e media featuring bout it..not helping @ all... as warned n expected, there were some -ve comments made by some ppl. like this guy juz walked up to me n pointed "u sure its for e cancer ppl?" i was at first stumped by tt ah pek's comment. but then again he didnt look as though he's sane enough..lol. but i did reply him with a straight "ya". opps..me n my big mouth.. so sorry its juz my nature of bein direct n tactless. ahha..i shant say bout my p6 thingy between me n this teacher tt i was truthful with my comment..isnt nice to put it up here.hehx.anyway, after tt me n sarah went to eat lunch n look for my skirt for ndp.stupid hoho made me change to like 5 diff skirts @ one shot! ahha..finally bought one !(tt turn out to be e same as jennifer's!grrr..ahha) then went hm to shower then went straight to grandma's hse. had my late grandmas 100th dae. ya.. so had some reading of e muslim verses n prayers. n things tt got me pissed off. with e way my relatives r acting.like i didnt talk to my cousins much cos i dun find gossiping any fascination or sth nice to do nor appropriate for such a solemn occasion. like puleez.. while we were reading e muslim verses, only me n my sis were e only gurls grandchildren reading it. like e rest of e gurls were in e rm gossipin n crapping ard. wtf?! no respect @ all..even if they cant read it due to feminine issues cant they juz shut e heck up while we read it?tt's juz a way of showing respect. n i have to say that those who were in e rm were much older than me,but sadly didnt have e maturity ,at least for such stuff. mayb im too sensitive over such issue cos i was one of e closest to my grandma . still,even if they arent tt close to her,they ought to give respect. hrmph. another thg tt pissed me off was tt after finish reading e verses,of course we let e guests eat 1st.then ,my cuz(e gurls) were like impatient cos they were hungry. puleeez...like i wasnt,some more i only ate one meal for e day tt was w sarah @ long johns. then i helped out to clear dishes cos they needed help .n again it was only me n my sis who went to do so. i had to like serve n lay out e plates n dishes for my own cuz,who in my opinion shd help themselves n self-serve since its their grandma's hse n its not e 1st time they went there. n after i lay out e dishes, all my cuzzs' mothers were calling out to them to eat. oh mann..it was an ugly sight...i was soo tempted to say " e food isnt running away! there's plenty for every1. dun nd to rush" ahha.. luckily i was restrained from doin so cos i didnt want to create a scene n thk tt it aint worth doin so cos it a waste of my time n effort. ;) i dun care if one of my cuz came to chance upon this blog n read this. read it . i cnt be bothered to thk or spare ur feelings. im juz stating a fact. yeap. so after clearing e dishes n all i finally ate with my closest aunts n e maid , in e kitchen. wow. sounds like cinderella.lol..but its gd in a way cos e food is juz in front of u!convenient` mayb my cuz saw my pissed off look n they helped to wash dishes after they ate,though only for a while. in my opinion, (this may sound crude) but they did it only in e presence where there's lotsa ppl.to be praised for bein hardworking. sorry i sound mean,but its a bit like duh` ahha.cos after most ppl were gone frm e kitchen they went back to e rm . well done. a sseries of drama mama. but okok...they did something.they helped out.after i ate i wwent inside e rm n practically slept.ahha..from exhaustion since morning.in other words,i didnt talk much to my relatives e whole evening.(which is rare knowing tt i usually talk a lot)
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2:25 PM <3
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